One of the skills of grief that Lusa had learned was to hold on tight to the last moments between sleep and waking. Sometimes, then, in the early morning, taking care not to open her eyes or rouse her mind through its warm drowse to the surface where pain broke clear and could, she found she could choose her dreams. She could call a memory and patiently follow it backward into flesh, sound, and scents. It would be come her life once again and she was held and safe. Everything undecided. Everything still new.
Lusa, learning to navigate her grief, has discovered the ability to cherish the fleeting moments between sleep and waking. During these early morning instances, she avoids fully awakening, allowing herself to select dreams that bring comfort. In this state, she can revisit memories, reliving the sensations and emotions that once defined her life, gaining a sense of safety and connection to her past. This practice enables her to experience a moment where everything feels fresh and unresolved.
As Lusa immerses herself in these cherished recollections, she finds solace amidst her grief. The act of recalling memories not only provides her with a refuge but also allows her to confront the complexities of her emotional landscape. By lingering in this delicate balance between dreams and reality, she reclaims moments of joy and beauty, transforming pain into a space of potential and new beginnings.
