try to live in the now and keep my eye on the hummingbird. I see no one I used to know, but then I'm not just crazy about a lot of people. I mean maybe I was holding all the aces, but what was the game?
In "Play It As It Lays," Joan Didion explores themes of alienation and the search for meaning in a chaotic world. The protagonist encourages a focus on the present moment, symbolized by the hummingbird, suggesting a desire to appreciate life's fleeting beauty despite surrounding disinterest and disconnection from others. This reflects a deeper internal conflict and introspection.
The narrator reflects on their relationships, noting an absence of familiar faces, which may indicate a cautious view of intimacy and social ties. They question the purpose behind past experiences, likening life to a game where success feels hollow if the game itself lacks clarity or significance.
