In "Shopaholic Takes Manhattan" by Sophie Kinsella, the protagonist grapples with her feelings about her relationship. She expresses uncertainty about her romantic situation, questioning whether her partner's absence signifies a lack of commitment. This internal conflict highlights her insecurities and the complexity of their bond.

The quote reflects her doubt, as she wonders if things would be different if they were truly a couple, contemplating that he would be present if their relationship were stronger. This moment encapsulates her struggle to find clarity amidst her emotional turmoil and the expectations of love.