无论我想要多少我需要钱来购买的东西，都有一些恶魔般的目前将我推向另一个方向 - 朝着无政府状态，贫穷和疯狂的方向发展。令人讨厌的妄想，一个人可以过着体面的生活而不会雇用自己作为犹大山羊。
(No matter how much I wanted all those things that I needed money to buy, there was some devilish current pushing me off in another direction -- toward anarchy and poverty and craziness. That maddening delusion that a man can lead a decent life without hiring himself out as a Judas Goat.)