(This anger I felt wasn't about the child at all. It's inside me and it's poisoning so many of my relationships. It leaves so little room for compassion." She reached up to wipe a tear from her face. "That's no way to live. I have to get over it. I may need some help, I don't know. But I realized something today dredging up all those murky memories. I can't change the past. I can't take the hurt back. But I can soften it if I can just learn how to accept it.)