她最喜欢喝酒的是没有在场，这种自我逃脱，脱节，解放，逃生的感觉。酒精为她提供了成为自己而没有死亡的绝佳替代方法。
(What she liked the most about drinking was not being present, that feeling of self-evasion, of disconnection, of liberation, of escape. Alcohol offered her an excellent alternative to being herself without actually dying.)