当这一切开始时，我问自己：“我要像大多数人一样从世界上退出世界，还是我要活下去？”我决定要活下去 - 或至少尝试生活 - - 我想要的方式，有尊严，勇气，幽默，镇定。
(when all this started, I asked myself, 'Am I going to withdraw from the world, like most people do, or am I going to live?'I decided I'm going to live---or at least try to live---the way I want, with dignity, with courage, with humor, with composure.)