我实际上相信,如果我表现得好,如果我取得全A,如果我足够好,我可以拯救我父亲的生命。每次他心脏病发作时,我都知道我做了什么导致了他的心脏病。
(I actually believed if I behaved myself and if I made straight A's and if I was good enough, I could save my dad's life. And every single time he had a heart attack, I knew what I had done that caused it.)